I speak.: July 2010

Sunday, 25 July 2010

329. Tired

As of today, I am Day 5 of my 10 day work streak. Insanely tired.

I am starting to get very tired in the mornings, I am always moody by the afternoon, and by night all I want to do is to just go to sleep.

Eff my life.

I am getting so completely dark it is craaaaaaaazy. I never really did like the sun.

Anyways, guess this is what people have been telling me about the working life.

In any case, I am going to start school again soon so that is insanely exciting, and before you burst out laughing, from this August onwards, I am going to be studying Math and Economics!

Yes, you read right.

Math.

I really dont mind the Economics ( Heck, it was the reason why I choose that course ), but the Math ... We'll just have to wait and see on that one.

I am trying to remind myself that I got in to the course with the grades I have, and so in many ways I am "qualified" for it? I shouldn't feel like the other students are definitely going to be smarter, better and probably more sane than I am, right?

Dang.

Anyways, you awesome folks that keep visiting my blog though I have no longer seize to exist any longer, thanks!

*virtual hug*

Now, time for work! Toodles!

Tuesday, 20 July 2010

328. Updates

Magpie <3

So, I wish I could do some awesome updating about how amazingly happening my life is right now, but unfortunately... my life isn't that happening!

My week usually consist of 10 days of work, then 4 days off. And incase you are ever wondering I have the most unglamourous job you can possibly imagine having. I work as a parking lady. I think it might get better soon though because Johanne is going to start working with me soon!

Other than that, I have only been lazing around doing nothing entertaining my smelly sister.

And if this information is of any importance, the Hjelmstad brothers are taking me and my sister out to Fratelli today! Mmmm. I love Fratelli, so I can't wait!

Shall update later!

Tuesday, 13 July 2010

327. I wonder.

I wonder sometimes, why is it that whenever I said that I owe nothing to Malaysia as far as I can feel/see, they have given me nothing, I get criticized for not being patriotic?

Putting the racial issue aside and how I know that back in Malaysia I am classified as a second class citizen, why should I feel like I am indebted to Malaysia?

Come next year, I would have been living in Norway for 5 years. That is a quarter of my lifetime.

Norway has in the last 5 years, given me the opportunity to go to school, to get a Diploma, the ability to go to a University (or any colleges my heart desires, doing whatever I choose), is willing to give me a loan/grant as like every other Norwegians so I can go to school, given my the opportunity to work and make a living and above Norway has never ever treated me like I am any less worthy.

Surely, there are times where they will put their people ahead of me, but as far as I am concern its the endless possibilities this country has for me is what matters most.

All these things Norway has done for me, do I still have to feel that Malaysia is where I owe my duties to?

Really, what has Malaysia done for me that is that significant?

If I was back home, I probably wouldn't even have had the opportunity to go to a Uni unless my parents/me paid for it. Not because I am not qualified, simply because I wasn't born the right race.